Ich möchte mich selbst wieder gern haben können, dieser Selbsthass soll verschwinden. Ich möchte das die Menschen sagen das ich dünn geworden bin. Ich fühle mich fett. Wenn ich sage: "Ich will Abnehmen", dann interessiert das Niemanden, oder ich bekomme zu hören: "Willst du Magersüchtig werden?" -NEIN, will ich nicht. Ich habe gesagt Abnehmen und nicht magersüchtig werden. Vor einem Jahr als ich abnahm von 53kg auf 48kg, war ich glücklich damit. Dann nahm ich wieder zu auf 54kg. Diese ganzen Kilos müssen wieder runter. Muss! Muss! Muss! Heute stand auf der Waage: 53,8kg. Das freute mich sehr, aber nun hab ich wieder was gegessen. Ich wette diese doofen 54kg sind immer noch da.
Ab heute Antidepressiva nehmen.
1 Toastbrot mit Salami
1 1/2 Brötchen (Käse, Salami, ohne was)
1 Glas Milch
1 Teller Chilli-con-Carne
1 Fruchtzwerg
ca. 650 kcal ?!
Hi there, I'm from Sweden, and I can't speak German, but I used google translate - and it seems like you don't feel very well... I understand how it feels like wanting to loose weight, because I want it too. But since you are 170cm tall, and weight ~54kg, I don't think that it is healthy for you to loose anymore weight. You are thin enough, and it's not good for your body if you get to thin. I'm 167cm tall and weight ~60kg, I've lost almost 3kg since christmas because I've been training alot more and I've been sick. And I'm not happy about the way I look and such, but it gets better. I try to accept my weight and looks, and I no longer feel disgusted of the way I look when I'm looking on a mirror.
AntwortenLöschenI've just turned eighteen and my selfconfidence are slowly starting to get better. So please hold on, things will get better eventually, it might just take some time, 'kay?
And sorry for my bad english...
Thanks for your comment. Your english isn't bad, you don't need to apologize :) But sorry for my bad english. It's nice to hear, that your selfconfidence is starting to get better. In my opinion I need to loose weight and then my selfconfidence can start to get better. If I look in the mirror, I want to demolish the mirror, because I can't see myself. I know I'm very complicated. I don't want to get anorexia. I only want to loose weight. I think I should deliberate about whether it's necessary to loose weight. But I don't know how I can get selfconfidence without loose weight, because I feel myself fat anymore.
AntwortenLöschenSomething I did to try to accept my body was (this will probably sound quite stupid... xD) that whenever I saw a picture of someone that was really skinny (like not healthy-skinny, but more starving-skinny) was that I tried to tell myself that it was ugly to look unhealthy. I repeated this every time I thought about losing weight, and eventually I'm starting to get a more realistic goal for my weight, that is not unhealthy for my body.
AntwortenLöschenI'm still not happy about my body, and still want to be skinny, but I try to focus on other things. ...like chocolate lol XD I think that if I didn't love sweets as much I am, I would probably be in the risk zone of getting anorexia.
This sounds not stupid. It's a good idea. It's nice to hear that this idea helps you. The problem is, if I look on pictures with skinny girls, then I'm very sad. Today I was going to H&M, I looked in the mirror and said: I'm fat, look at the other girls, how skinny they are.
AntwortenLöschenMy friends doesn't understand me, they said I'm stupid. I doesn't eat so much today, but I was sitting in the bathroom and want to puk my Eat. I was crying but I don't want to get anorexia. I feel fat since years. Now I want to change something without loosing control. I'm complicates, am I?
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